I haven't written much about this pregnancy yet, mostly because I felt when I wrote about every week when I was carrying little bear I just felt repetitive and boring. Not much changes on a week to week basis, and writing about big moments makes more sense to me. I have been taking weekly photos though, just for documentation of how differently I've grown this time.
The way my little belly is growing is just one of few things that are different this time. Though a lot (and I mean A LOT) of things are very much the same, there are also a few very noticeable differences. Little fox's kicks and wiggles are way more noticeable this time, and I was feeling little 'bubbles' a lot sooner as well. I'm craving some different things (though all still in the same areas of sweets and salt and cheese) like cinnamon raisin bagels - I haven't craved those ever before, and I just cannot get enough. The same old cravings of poutine and Cesar salads are there again, too. And what's a pregnancy without a craving for ice cream? But that's probably more than enough about food - I'm just very happy to finally have an appetite again.
A small part of me feels sad that my pregnancy is going so fast - or maybe our life is just more exciting now with a toddler - and I haven't really been able to take it in and enjoy it as much as I did last time. Some days I don't even look pregnant! But there is a much larger part that knows this is just a small piece of our journey together and learning how to take in the small, important moments when the world slows down is what really matters. Quiet moments when I'm laying on the couch and my sweet fox kicks me really hard as if to say 'I'm here, momma' and I just smile and rub my belly, or when Seth pauses in the middle of playing and points to my belly and I softly tell him 'that's your baby brother in there.' These tender moments that stick with me are all I need to focus on when life is busy, and I am grounded in knowing that no matter what these boys are mine and I am theirs.
Now on a less emotional note - being pregnant in the summer is not my favourite. I have been very sweaty, hot, uncomfortable and cranky. I'm not very uncomfortable physically (I'm not as big as I thought I would be!), but I hate the sticky feeling on my skin when it's hot and humid. It's dreadful. We've been going to the mall and out to the park a lot more recently, doing whatever we can to stay cool and happy - but I am so ready for fall already. It's very hard to enjoy pregnancy when it's so very hot outside. I've wanted a fall baby for a long, long time and I am so excited to see what warmth the cold weather will bring us this year.
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